theo. he/him. 19 years old. autism/ocd. fluent in en/fr, learning ir.
this site is going to serve as a sort of digital scrapbook, compiling any and everything i may find intresting, and (hopefully) also serving as an archive for my art. i'm not a very organized person, hence the lack of cohesiveness on this site, but i'm okay with that :-)
i'm a first-gen biomedical sciences major by day, artist & occassional fiction scribbler by night. i love to play around with personal expression and experiment with artistic media!
i'm very into journaling/commonplacing, and character-focused digital/traditional work. i also want to learn how to play the bass at some point, hopefully soon! i'd love to be able to produce my own goth music at some point.
i draw inspiration for my art from queer & disabled experiences, horror, the uncanny valley, and nostalgia. i love to create, and have been drawing and writing for as long as i can remember. my oc's exist in a weird sort of undefined void without a 100% set story, (a bit confusing to anyone who isn't me, sorry!) due to my inability to write fiction nowadays due to art school burnout (something i might talk about later, maybe not. it's personal and hard to pinpoint or talk about.) however, my oc's are a lifelong special interest of mine and i do hope to be able to write about them/archive info on them more!
other special interests include medicine (lifelong, has existed in my brain since i could read), the horror genre (another lifelong one, despite my parents' best efforts to keep my child self away from horror!), music (specifically the goth counterculture, which i have been passively participating in since 2019), peat bogs, collecting figures (i am a smiski addict, just a little bit), and art (predominantly stationery collection & commonplacing and character-based work.) i'm studying biomedical sciences at university, and am hoping to become a genetic counselor after i graduate! after getting a job, i would really like to return to school for a phd studying rare connective tissue disorders (as i myself have ehlers-danlos syndrome and have felt the effects of how under-researched it is throughout my life.)
i (jokingly) refer to myself as a catboy, but in the same way that izutsumi from dungeon meishi is a catgirl (mannerisms and general autism) -- i've been told by various people that i'm the type of person that "would just make sense to have a cat."
i am also disabled, though i won't go into the specifics of my diagnoses. i struggle with energy and severe chronic pain a lot, and a lot of my experiences are affected by this.
i struggle with sleep, and have since i was very young, so a lot of my creative expression is themed around disrupted sleep & nightmares, as a sort of reclaimation of the all the trouble sleep has caused me throughout my childhood.
i describe my experiences throughout my life as feeling "ghostly," (whether that is positive or negative depends :P) and have always found ghosts comforting, so i call myself "ghost boy." :)
this is just a quiet, soft place for me to put my thoughts and ramble about my life (my haunted home, if you will!) thank you for reading and i hope you enjoy your stay!
take care and please do not forget to rest,
theodore /ᐠ - ˕ -マ